I was asked today if I believed in God.
Do I believe there is a God?
To put it simply. I don't know.
I don't know if there is,
I don't know if there isn't.
I've never deliberated over it much.
I suppose the closest to a religion I've come to believe or even follow is Buddhism or perhaps even Wicca.
My mothers side of the family are Catholics and I was christened, but I've never been a devout Catholic, in fact I've hardly ever stepped foot into a church, in the past 5 years not once at all.
Thinking about it now,If there was a God then I'd ask why is there war?
It's ironic as people say we fight for peace, so therefore we kill in the name of peace and religion, at least it seems to me all wars stem from religion.
The question remains though, Why war? Why killing? Why death? When we have what, roughly 6 billion people in the world? 6 billion souls and in this age of technology and new medical advances then surely if there was a God there would be no need for death or in fact any of it would there(?).
Then again I suppose that the counter argument would be that we have our own free will, so therefore war and murder and death in the line of duty are our own cause, our own use of will.
Wouldn't we all feel victimised if we put our trust in a God and this God took someone close to us who we love, wouldn't we all ask why?
I don't know if putting that much faith and trust into God is at all times wise, not just for what I mentioned, but for many other reasons.
Anyway isn't religion and God mans creation?
Will we ever know?
Or is it indeed the ones who have that much faith that will find out upon departure of their lives?
Maybe there is a God and heaven awaiting them for such strong faith?
In the end, I have still come to the conclusion that now more than ever:
I don't know if I believe or not.
I simply don't know.
It is one question I feel I cannot answer at this moment in time.